Taller In More Ways.

oh my goodness WHEN was the last time i blogged?!

anyhow, MERRY CHRISTMAS 2008!

this year, the christmas spirit is so alive. not like last year, i can't even remember what the heck happened. this year it got a lot more interesting. (i guess having cash in my pocket helped too.)

Life is so fantastic now. I mean compared to jc life this is heaven baby. (minus my crazy mother who is in the midst of her menopause dear lord when is it going to end.) (oh and also minus the fact that i'm staying in friggin jurong east now with my godmother for SIX months.) (OH and also minus the fact that i'm doing a lot of stupid things now that i'm going to regret in the future but i'm pretending to be blind to that fact)

Okay fine life isn't THAT fantastic now. but hey its all good.

i can practically feel the change in me. My shista (sister in Beins language) says that i'm in the "whatever man" phase of my life. I think she's right. she's always right. I wish i were her sometimes. Right now, she's my best friend. We've got super close since i got into jc. Unlike before that when we used to scratch each other and try to intimate WWE bitch-fight version.


I'm currently giving tuition and still working at Sheraton from time to time when i feel like it. the job sucks but whattooodooooo.

I'm extremely pleased with the xmas presents i bought today.

Shista: Sheer Romance bikini and Asian cookbook
Daddy: ACDC CD
The Mother: The Audicity of Hope by Obama
Kesh: an extremely gorgeous christmas snow globe
Myself: Sheer Romance one piece bikini

but i'm unfortunately not done xmas shopping. need to get presents for the kids. I saw this Bratz Yearbook edition thingy and thought it looked super cute. i mean its the sort of stuff primary school kids would like to show off in the classroom right? so ya. for Nina's secondary 2 brother i think i'll get a soccer ball or maybe scotch tape so i can shut him up during lessons.

the biggest joke is that i'm teaching Nina CHINESE. i seriously pray that i'm teaching her the right things. because of her i must revise chinese almost everyday now. pain in the ass.


i'm dead beat. MERRY CHRISTMAS AND GOODNIGHT! (:

( this is what you get for wishful thinking. )

im suffocating, slowly crumbling, increasingly paranoid under this immense pressure.

pressure comes from all directions, in unique ways from everyone, everywhere, indirectly and directly.

where's the point in breaking down? just a waste of time, tears and energy. but sometimes its so difficult to stay in one piece.

i know everyone is going through the exact same thing. but sometimes you just can't help but feel so alone. Despite the millions of boyfriend calls, despite the irritating older sister, despite encouraging friends, despite the shitloads of sleep you're sacrificing, despite knowing that if output could really be equivalent to input you'd be in fucking Oxford.

no point thinking about this now says everyone. its in just 5 days. or is it 4? i forgot how to count. or perhaps i dont want to count. go figure.

whatever is it, no backing out now. only losers and cowards back out. If others can do it and excel, so can i. Period.




I've never cherished JC life i way i do now. But 2 years is gone and it will never ever come back. Things will not change. Theres nothing you or i can do. Actually, come to think of it, 50 bucks says you don't even bloody care. So, like you, i'm walking pass this stage. And im not looking back.


P.S. Hope it gives you hell.

( Fortitude )

( My Cinderella Story Scene. )
oh my gosssh. it took my com lightyears to load livejournal's homepage. how very inefficient. which is one of the reasons why i havent blogged for more than a mth. & i'm not locking this post so someone won't complain.

prelim results are out. i did extremely average-like. ummm yeah. its not disastrous results though, so i do have hope. Thank goodness. then again, its all below C. unless they decide to moderate my GP and give me my bloody C. but then again, it just prelims so the results dont matter that much. & i'm pretty damn proud of myself for passing lit & econs even though i was as sick as a dog (or sicker) during the exam day. so its all good.

about 45 days to the As. nikki told me last night (yes i finally managed to answer her call after missing 0435784368 of her precious overseas calls) that if she were in my position, she wldnt be sleeping or doing anything unrelated to studying. thats so her la.i wish i cld be like that, but every time i study for more than 3 hrs, i get a horrible horrible migrane and start throwing a fit and all that. in fact after this, im gonna watch nanny daddy and ugly betty. so much for having only 48 days left and supposedly being stressed and all. someone shoot me.

as to what course im planning to get into (since 4 ppl asked me today alone), i'm not sure. i mean it all boils down to the results right? so ill see my results la. whatever i can get probably. if not then yeah ill just be a roadsweeper and live in a cardboard box. (AHAHAH.)

james first day in NS was tuesday. he called me yst evening sounding like some dying soul. poor thing. then after talking for abt 20 minutes all a sudden i heard some shouting in the background and he quickly put down the phone saying that he'd call back. but he didnt. i wonder what happened. i think that james and i have really gone through A HELL LOT together in the past 5 or 6 years.and also took a HELL LOT of neoprints tgt. LOL. the most recent one i took with him is the one on top. he looks like such a clown. LOL.  okay la hes such a small boy.

okay i better shuttup about james.

alls well with the other friends. nam in vietnam. supposed to meet him today but something tells me that hes still in vietnam. sonya's boyfriend won her a pooh bear yesterday at the arcade. nikki found a new boyfriend. according to her hes hot. and hes from ethopia. like honestly, nikki is such a crazy nut. ahahaha. and apparently he can't spell. but she says hes very sweet to her and i think thats all that matters yeah? karls back to liking his amanda and isnt with the piano girl like i thought he would be with. suprises suprises. life is oh so very dynamic dont you think. but even though circumstances are ever changing, i make it a point to remain in contact with special people.

ahaha ok my mum is staring at me threateningly probably cause i shldnt be er blogging when my As are in 45 days. ahahaha. but seriously right, its impossible to study 24 hrs right?!! like wth. its the As, not some life and death thing. i'll give it my best & hope for the best, true, but im not trading my life for it.

i can't wait for sunday! meeting akesh like FINALLY. (and here akesh shrieks in delight cause he sees his name ahahahahhah!!) meanwhile i must really study hard. but before that....nanny daddy......


AHAHAHAHA. i'm incorrigible. smack me please.</div>

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